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On Friday I went to the cardiologist to find out if I could be a Marfan. According to him he didn’t think so, nut wants to shove a tube down my throat and do an MRI just to make sure. My aunt left that night and the following day I came up to New York to register for classes and see my girlfriend.

So far there hasn’t been any good news with school or money otherwise. The school wants me to take out a 17000 dollar loan which would be in my mother’s name, which isn’t good. After I heard that, me and the girlfriend hit the library looking for grants for school or business, but so far have come up empty handed.

I’m going to be leaving back for Delaware within the next few days so I can schedule my testing, get some work done, and be there with my mother when she has the MRI done. All in all besides the fact that I’ve been with my baby, the week has pretty much sucked.

I’ll return comments on the last entry when I get home.

So I haven’t been around much these past few days because my aunt is down here with some of her kids (2 are hers and 1 that isn’t). My time has been spent on the phone with my girlfriend or babysitting the kids or both.

My mother was diagnosed as a Marfan on Monday. The main problem with this is a hereditary heart defect which I’ll need to get tested for. I have to go to the cardiologist on Friday to see if I have it or not. I don’t think I will, seeing as how I do not appear to be your typical marfan type.

Some of you have asked about Blockbuster Online. I must say that I will recommend this to anyone looking to get into the online movie renting business. For less than twenty dollars a month you can get three movies at a time take those movies return them in store for three more movies, along with a monthly movie pass and four weekly movie passes a month. It’s definitely well worth the money.

I’m trying this new advertising with clicksor. I just installed it so I can’t give a full review yet, but after a few days you will have my full review of the program. Again like I said I’m not looking to become rich (although that would be nice) I am just looking to break even with my site. Hopefully I will be able to do that with this program now.

In other news I worked at my old job the past few days and I go back in tomorrow. It’s funny they tell me they don’t need me anymore then they keep asking if I can work. It’s okay though, because some other work has come in recently and it is actually helping with bills and the such.

I’ve been a member of Blockbuster’s online rental service for a while now, I have always recommended them to anyone who asks, but now they have a better thing going on. Now when you get movies, you don’t need to mail them back, you can take them to a Blockbuster and trade them for a different DVD. That means double the movies you would have had if you just used the online service.

So in light of the new GTA game, comes my thoughts on more thoughts of violence in video games. I love how if something violent happens the video game industry immediately goes under fire. When Colombine happened, Doom was targeted as the reason and parents went after Doom. My question is what about the parents? Why are the parents able to walk away with no responsibility? Or how about the concept of blaming to those who did it, not finding a scapegoat.

I’ve driven down the street, I’ve had the urge to steal a cop car or to shoot the president. Are you to tell me that I could blame it on video games and then all the blame could be taken off me? It is a proven fact that between 1993 and 1996 the sale of violent video games were the highest in history, but the violence that occured in youth was actually down from previous years. How about we blame the images seen on the news and the fact that this world is going to hell due to the fact that people are using far too many scapegoats.

There is a video game holiday coming up in January known as Wintereenmas I encourage everyone who reads this to go out and play a game see if it alters the way you think, act and/or feel.

I took my girlfriend home a few days ago and it’s been strange ever since. I guess I got used to her being here and coming home and having her here and then going out with her at night. She might be back in a few weeks though, maybe after Thanksgiving.

My job interview went alright, I’m still waiting for them to call me up. In the meantime, I will be working at my old job every Wednesday and Saturday and I have a few other ventures up my sleeve to earn some money.

When I got home I discovered my desktop wasn’t working so a quick reformat and that’s fixed. Also months of not having wireless internet on my laptop is now over. It now connects to my wireless network. So I’m actually writing this in my living room talking to my mother who just got home from work, maybe I need to break the wireless again.

Today was my last day at work. This whole week they’ve been sending me home extremely early, today was no exception. I don’t mind though, because my girlfriend is down here this week and everyday I come home, she’s been there. She’s leaving on Monday and I have a job interview on Tuesday up by her. If I get the job then I will be able to move out of my house and have a full time job doing what I love to do, program.

I’ve been having strange dreams as of late. My high school programming teacher passed away a few months ago and I’ve been dreaming I’m sitting down and talking to him, and we talk, but everytime I wake up I can’t remember what he said. If anyone knows what this means, could you please enlighten me?

We were shorthanded on Saturday so guess who had to go on the truck and do deliveries? That’s right. I am happy to announce that I did not break anything, or damage any homes in the process of my deliveries. I just hope that I don’t need to do it again this Saturday because I am going to pick up my girlfriend and thats a long drive, so I’ll be napping on the way up there if I do deliveries, and that’s never a good thing to do when you’re driving.

In other news I am still looking to make some money off this site, not become rich or anything (if it happens, however, I won’t be ungrateful), just enough to break even. The way things are going so far, however, within a few weeks I should be able to do it.

I left for Ohio, Friday afternoon around 12. I get there at 7 or 8, and we go and check out the place they rented for the wedding reception, only it is being used as a locker room for a football team. We speak to the cops at the football game and we get everything sorted out. After the game we would go there so the cook can prep the food and all that good stuff, but before we’re about to leave Brett gets a call saying that he can’t go there that night because of the game. After arguing for a half hour, it comes down to the fact that they have to wait the next day to do anything. So instead we go hang out at a bonfire in the park, I have a bottle of champagne and a few shots and I can’t remember the night, but apparently I did some shit that I was apologizing for the next day.

Saturday is the day of the reception and everything was going fine, until we realize what time it was and we hurried the fuck outta there and went back to his place to get ready really quick. The reception ended around 8, so at 11 we went to a haunted house that was pretty sweet. We used to make haunted houses every year and I think if I had my own place then I’d deck it out more for Halloween than any other holiday.

Sunday as I was getting ready to drive home, Breelynn was crying and Brett was offering to pay me to stay, which if I didn’t have work the next day, I’m not sure when or if I would come back at all. It’s beautiful out there.

I got back Sunday night, and I thought I would have some pictures up by now, but I woke up yesterday sick as a dog and haven’t really been doing much of staying in bed playing video games and sleeping. I have work tomorrow, but if work keeps slowing down then I might be out of a job all together, then I don’t know what I’d do.

So I know I haven’t really been around much on here or on the internet in general, but I have been busy with going to see the girlfriend and with my best friend’s wedding and with working, so I hope you all can understand. As I am writing this I am getting ready to leave for Ohio for the final rounds of his wedding. When I return I will probably put some unfinished sections onl,ine just so I can add more content and have the need to finish them quickly. I will also be taking my camera with lots of batteries so I can get some nice shots during my trip. I will be back on Sunday, seeing as how I have work on Monday so I hope you all have a great weekend and I will be back with lots to show (hopefully).

Work is all right, my body adjusted to moving furniture and now I can move pretty much anything they throw at me. It seems to have slowed down a lot since I started there, we don’t have truck loads of furniture or work that needs to be moved, only about maybe 30-40 pieces a day which is nothing to the 120 we were moving.

With this less furniture that has to be moved, there are gaps in the day which there’s nothing to do, so I am usually waiting in someone’s office reading until I am called. Right now I’m rereading Catcher in the Rye, I think I may have started it a few years ago, but I’m not too sure if I ever finished it.

In my Me section, I added a DVD List of all the DVDs that I own, someone asked me a while ago how many DVDs I own, since I am such a movie whore. Well now my DVD collection is online, I usually buy more each month so it will be updated quite frequently.

So I haven’t been here for a few days, let me fill you all in on why. First of all I found a job and this last week has been hell adjusting to it. I’m moving furniture and the last time I hit the weights was more than two years ago in high school, I’m not as strong as I used to be. My first day I was sore as hell, every muscle in my body was sore. Now it isn’t that bad, even though it has only been a week, my body is adjusting. The bad part about me not being used to it, is that this is supposed to be a full time job and I’ve only worked two 8 hour days so far.

I’ve gotten some inspiration for the site, I’m thinking of some changes here and there along with some sections that I’ve wanted to have, but never really had the drive for it. Lately I’ve been pretty inspired to do things that I never thought of doing, and to finish things that was once forgotten.

I got twenty-six comments on my last blog, I’ll return them all in the coming days, but for tonite I’m going to work on some stuff and get my Despair, Excentric and Xposure sites done.

Think about the people in your life, think about your best friend and the person who your going out with. What have they taught you? What do you think they will teach you in the future?

Now think about five years ago. Think about your best friend from back then, think about the person you were going out with. What did they teach you? Where did they go?

I’m about to tell you something that many people don’t know and some never really realize, people are only in your life for as long as you need them. I’m serious. Why is it that you never have as strong of friendships when your grown up as you did when you were growing up? Because you don’t need it.

The truth is that just because you want something to stay the same, circumstances beyond our control will change the situation, and at times it will make people not be as close to some as they once were, because we don’t need them to be.

In this ever changing world, we sometimes lose people far too fast to grasp, one day someone will be there and the next day they are gone.

Maybe you don’t lose contact completely, maybe what was once entire weekends full of fun turns into a phone call every now and then. Maybe a get together every few years or so, because the party’s involved feel a certain loyalty to the other, but perhaps one doesn’t really feel much beyond that.

Think about your best friend and your current relationship. Think about how life has a way of passing us by when you’re out working, or working out. Now go tell those two people thank you for being there.