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My 25″ monitor was out of focus, so I opened it to adjust the focus, but I somehow messed it up and it is now fuzzy and has no red color. So I switched my monitors, that is now just for my playlist. My monitor now is a little out of focus I think, but I don’t feel like messing with it. I could always hook up my television to my computer, all I would need is an S-video out cable. As much as I hate to say it though, it looks like I’ll be investing in a monitor soon.

There was an accident on Route 1 today, a car swerved in front of another car and got hit. I stopped to help, along with a bunch of other people, we still had towels and stuff in my momther’s car (since mine isn’t registered) so that helped them out a lot.

It’s hard this time of year, I don’t even feel like celebrating the holidays, first year without my grandmother, and I just feel like giving up. Usually we’d have a tree up by now, I mean it seems that she was the one who drove us to decorate. It was her favorite holiday. A few years back she was in the hospital around Christmas and she got out of the hospital on December 23rd. Up until then there weren’t any Christmas decorations up, but I decorated the whole house that day.

I’ve been acting weird with this whole holiday stuff, saying stuff I shouldn’t say to people, and not saying stuff to other people. To everyone who I’ve hurt in the last few days I’m sorry, I know I can’t make up for what I did, but I hope someday we can get passed it.

Do you ever say to yourself that you love your car? You take it to the car wash, buy it rims, change its oil every 3000 miles, but what happens when it breaks down? You suddenly go from loving it to hating it. You yell at it and possibly smack it. You’ve gone from loving this machine to hating it. If it was love, then you could only be mad at it and not hate it. How can you love something that doesn’t have the potential to love you back? It is just a machine that you choose what it is.

WHat I mean is that it can be a car, a vehicle that takes you from point A to point B, but what if on your way to point B someone cuts you off? Well then you could possibly get angry, and drive around and cut him off, you then turn your car into a weapon. What if you get evicted from your house? You have no where to go, so you stay in your car. Your vehicle is now your home. So you see you decide what you use things for, you decide how you use it.

Spiderman is driven by one simple phrase: with great power comes great responsibility. It is each his or her own responsibility for how they act, and how they use their possessions. If you can say I love you to your car, but not to your children, then something is wrong there, and it is your responsibility to rectify the situation. Remember that you can’t love things that don’t have the potential to love you back.

So I suppose my insomnia is back, seeing as how it is 4:38 AM and I am still awake. I just did another coat of black paint on my bed and I set up the main configuration of my office, but I haven’t brought in my desktop from my car yet. I want to wait until all my furniture is painted, but my mother is bugging me to set hers up so I would need to find my desktop and install it and set up the printers and all that jazz, something I don’t feel like doing. At least after my bed is finished I only need to paint my dresser and the tv stand. I am still contemplating my need for a television in my office, I think I do need one seeing as how I’ll be spending most my days in here working on school work and other stuff, plus it will be the room with the router so I would need it for my Xbox Live.

Speaking of XBox, I have been hearing a lot of complaints of the 360 keeps overheating. I guess it is good I didn’t buy it, but I will try and save my mooney for the PS3. Sony has never dissappointed me in the console world, and I wish to get Nintendo Revolution too, when that too comes out. As for the 360, I’ll wait until the overheating is resolved.

So I am in Delaware now, all hooked up to the internet and ready to go. The last few days have been hectic, getting the closing all sorted out and stuff. There were a few issues that arose, no gutters on the house, low water pressure, an uncovered drain in the back of the property, and a few others. Everything worked out fine though and now we are in the house. I’ve been painting the last few days, not much got done though because we didn’t buy much paint and the walls are textured and sucked it up. And being yesterday was Thanksgiving Lowes was closed.

I know I need to add more to the site, and update the about me, but there is so much to do in my life outside the site, that I don’t know when I will get it done. Plus at this point I am more in a meet new people kind of mode because I don’t know anybody in Delaware. If you live in Delaware speak up and leave a comment.

It is so much different down here, everyone is nicer and don’t look at you like you’re going to rob them. It reminds me of Ohio, but more cultured I guess the word would be. Everything closes around here pretty early in the winter because it is so dead down here. I am going to be hitting some cyber cafes in the coming days because I think it might be a good place to meet people with similar interests. I went into one the other night, but the guy was just like it’s winter nobody is around, so I need to find what people do here in the winter. It also doesn’t help that I won’t be going to school until January.

All in all I miss Jersey to a degree, but there is something about living this close to the beach that seems so serene. I just have so much to do that I can’t enjoy it fully: painting the living room, kitchen, hallway, my room, my office, my bathroom, my mom’s room, and my mom’s bathroom, buying/building an L-shaped desk, unpacking, Christmas, decorating my office in a professional manner.

So this blog marks the 50th blog I’ve done. When I started this, I didn’t think I’d be so into blogging, and now it seems like even if I have nothing to blog about I am still writing. I even got back into writing poetry due to the blog.

The site is over a year old and the blog is only since about June or so, but it seems like the site has come a long way. It isn’t perfect, there is still much more to add, like a more sections and more tutorials, specifically website help and some C++ tutorials. But in a year it has progressed nicely.

So today I am going back to Delaware. the inspector is coming to look at the house make sure everything is up to code and such. Well I’d best be going now I want to shave my head before we go.

The forum has been messed up for the last day or so due to me messing around with it. Don’t worry I will have it back running normally soon. There was some errors in the forum that I didn’t know about until I went from page to page to check it out. I am doing the best I can so please bear with me.

I just woke up, I don’t know if I’m sick or I’m depressed because I have been sleeping a lot lately. Maybe I am sick because my throat is hurting a bit.

Delaware was interesting, but due to circumstances beyond our control, we may need to go back down there on Thursday. I may not go and just let my mom go if I am sick though. Okay well that’s all for this post I need to fix these problems and pack.

So I got a copy of Age of Empires 3 and I am very impressed. The voice acting isn’t as bad as most other video games, actually it is quite good and the graphics are amazing. The Native American tribes play a big part, allowing you to control their warriors and trade with them. You are the controlling general and the other players on your team (AI) ask if they can give up, and you can choose to allow them to resign or keep fighting. The only dissappointment I have in it is the lack of water battles. In AOE2 there’s more of an emphasis on water battles and allow you to control water inept societies like the Vikings. All in all though I love this new distraction.

I did get some packing done. I went to sleep at 2 and woke up a few hours later and I am fully refreshed. I was able to get some packing done, which I am almost done I suppose, most of my stuff is in those Sterilite draws, I am just going to tape the fronts closed and take the stuff like that.

My car was put in the shop yesterday, I don’t know what’s wrong with it yet. I hope it is nothing serious, seeing as how this is my third car.

It seems as though everytime I try and pack, I get distracted. Everytime I put something in a box and seal it, I wind up openning the box because I packed something I wanted. I suppose I am being childish, but I packed up my DVD’s and I opened the box so I could watch Hackers. When moving day rolls around I’m going to have all these open boxes that I am going to be hurrying to close up. As for the distractions, video games, my girlfriend and my website have been distracting me.

I had a great time with my girlfriend, Kelly dispite feeling sick. We went to dinner, and spent most of the day in each others arms, which is always nice when you aren’t feeling well, I just hope I don’t get her sick.

The other distraction, you may have noticed. The menu now has a more visually appealing factor, and the Halo 2 stats are back with a new layout for the front page in the About Me section. I also fixed some problems with my chatroom. Now if you’ll excuse me, I have video games that won’t play themselves.

This past week I’ve been talking to my friend Noah whom I haven’t seen in years. It is so strange when we depart from people and not see them in years. I mean when I last spoke to him he was 15 and in Plainsboro, NJ, but now he’s 19 and in Montreal, Canada. It’s strange to see how the tides of time change some people. If we weren’t around to see the changes that we ourselves make everyday and came back years later, we too wouldn’t recognize ourselves. I read a book where a girl went in a coma and woke up four years later and didn’t recognize herself, and had to get used to the changes that went on while she wasn’t there to witness them. It’s scarey to think of what could happen in four years or even one year, or even six months to those you love.

I have a lot of stuff I wrote from back then, personal stuff not appropriate for the web, andI can see that I have changed. I don’t remember changing, I don’t making a decision to be different, it just happened. I guess that’s the thing they call growing up huh? To change so much that your former self would be proud of the man you have become. I suppose sometimes it is good that you don’t consciously change because then maybe you wouldn’t want to do it and you would fight the change. Whatever the reason we grow and change, just try and change into the person you always wanted to. I guess that’s where we get the idea to change, to know what we want to become so we change into that person.

So there are four yes count them four new pages in the Spiderman section. These four pages basically retell the story of Spiderman up until this point, and when the new movie comes out, it will be updated to reflect it. Along with the story I have provided screen shots of some of the pivotal points in the movie.

As for the house, the people decided to buy it so we think closing will be sometime around Thanksgiving. It will suck moving so close to the holidays, but it should be okay, I suppose. I plan to go to college in the spring, and I need to make sure I can make all my credits transfer.

Other than that, nothing new has been going on. I have some problems with my Halo 2 Stats section, but I am working on it. I also am working on getting better horoscopes from Astrology.

I’m 21 years old. I have had a Nintendo, Sega Genesis, Super Nintendo, Playstation 1 and 2, and an X-Box. Plus I frequently play games on my PC. Back when I started playing video games, the games were really mild, nothing to give a second thought about, everything was mainly running and jumping, nothing that would cause any concern. Then in 1989 a video game called “Pussy City Pimps” came out, and it still wasn’t anything people made a fuss about. Even though the characters in the game walked around with their genitals hanging out, the game didn’t cause much of an uprise because it wasn’t that well known. Sixteen years later, video games with adult themes have been driven into the spotlight. Recently games like the Sims 2 and Grant Theft Auto: San Andreas have been in the news for mods that showed the characters simulating sex. Many groups are saying that these video games shouldn’t be allowed to be sold in the USA, saying they promote violence and turn people into killing and sexual machines.

One group even called the Grand Theft Auto series a training camp for cop killers. Now I’ll agree with them up to a point that they shouldn’t be sold to kids, and maybe they need to take the same precautions they take with porn, but it is my constitutional right to play violent video games. I mean I have been playing video games since I can remember. Back in 1996 I got the Playstation and along with it Resident Evil and Grand Theft Auto. I played them for hours at time, did it make me want to go out and kill cops, and shoot people in the head with a shotgun? No. I will admit that I wasn’t raised in the most stable environment, but that would put me at risk to be affected by these games right? I wasn’t. Now if I wasn’t affected by these games at 12 then what adult in their right mind would be affected at all?

A lot of people say that adults could be affected by these video games, but if adults are that feeble minded, why not disallow violent literature? Sure some adults are, just look at those who followed Manson, but do we really need to be babysat, by other impressionable adults. Now I say impressionable adults because the majority of the people saying this malarchy are from religious organizations. Now I have my own beliefs, and have experiences to back them up, but what about the adults who only read one book of faith, and base their entire belief structure around that and don’t even pick up any other book that might open their eyes a little bit more and see that all the religions have the same basis.

I’ve always wondered what would happen if you gave one of these impressionable adults a copy of Mein Kemf and told them to read it. I wonder if these people would be going out hating Jewish people because of World War I. If you believe that people are this impressionable, that they need to stop the sale of video games, because people will die, maybe it is because you are that impressionable. Maybe if you are one of these people who say video game violence will make you want to kill someone because everyone is so impressionable, maybe it is just the fact that you are so impressionable. I mean a video game being the cause of a school shooting and then the media blaming video games, without looking at other forms of violent media could be to blame, but because you are so impressionable you hear one thing about video games being evil and you are right on the bandwagon to bring them down. Forget the fact that the news has more violence on it everyday than one video game does.

I mean Canada has the same video games there that we do here, people are more likely to own guns there too, but they don’t have anywhere near the amount of school violence, or any kind of violence that we do here. I mean could it be that way because in Canada the news doesn’t constantly fill the screen with stories of death and horror, like here in America?

I am now going to bed, so that I can wake up tomorrow (later today) and blow up wraths, warthogs, ghosts and my fellow man. We live in America, the home of the free, the land where Church and state are seperate, and the land where our fantasies of blowing stuff up and killing our fellow man are met on game consoles. God Bless America, God Bless Video Games.

So the people the buying the house decided they wanted all these things done to it, things that if they were done it would bring up the value of the house 40 thousand dollars. The verdict is still out on if they are going to buy it or not, which is very annoying seeing as how my mother is pending on getting approved for the place down in Delaware, but on the up side, I was approved to live there.

So Kelly was having even more problems with her computer and came over the other day. It was nice haha. I helped her as much as I could with her computer, then we went to Outback. It was a good day.

I am still trying to get this layout into css style, and away from the tables. I am almost there, I believe.