January 2023

For a while now I have been considering the fact that I may be autistic on top of having ADHD. Having one without the other is rare. It started when I saw things on TikTok about how pretty much all autistic people do these certain things that I do. I have taken online tests and they all say that there is a good possibility I have autism. The one piece that I couldn’t place was a special interest.

Special interests are pretty much a common staple with autism. When it comes to ADHD, hobbies come and go and you will probably spend a decent amount of money on a hobby and then not touch it for a year after weeks or months of loving it. I have had a lot of hobbies over the years, but not really any special interests, until I realized something. When I was a kid I wanted to make movies (content creator wasn’t a thing back then). I’d want to write, direct, star in, do pretty much everything with it. After weeks of writing though, I would change gears and decide to turn it into a play instead of a movie. Now I will focus on writing blogs and articles and other things and then change to making videos and pictures, etc. So in some ways my special interest has always been content creation.

That’s not the only special interest I’ve had. Computers too. In college I wanted to get certified in everything and took computer classes that would have covered a lot of different majors and certifications. I wanted to code, build them, build networks, etc. Now I’m a web developer and I always try and find new ways of doing things. When there’s a new feature that I can do something I’ve never done before, I get excited about it. When I get a new piece of hardware, I can’t wait to put it in.

In some ways I’ve combined the two special interests when it comes to creating content with games and streaming. New programs, new commands, new things to do with the stream, etc. Streaming has somehow took both interests and combined them. Come to think of it, that might be why I don’t necessarily focus on trying to grow. I focus on the actual stream process and interesting things to do. I know I should focus on growth, the more growth, the more things I could do with the stream, but that part doesn’t hold my attention.

When it comes to hobbies, I tend to drop them after a bit of time. I have noticed that if I want to get back into a hobby, I can find a problem and try and come up with a solution. It’s temporary, but I can usually hyper focus on the problem until I find a solution. Sometimes that solution results in me spending more money on the hobby though. Sometimes it’s hard to care about a problem enough to focus on it though.

If you have ADHD, how do you get back to focusing on things? Are you’re autistic, what are your special interests? If you’re auDHD, do you too have a main special interests with hobbies that go along with it?

Is Leatherface going to be going the way of the Demogorgon? That may be the case. Earlier this week alternate names for Leatherface’s perks were found in the player test build (PTB). While we have no confirmation from Behaviour directly, Leaks by Daylight on Twitter backed up this news by saying that Leatherface will only be in the game for a few more months.

Stranger Things was rumored to be coming back to the game last year, but now the rumors are saying that it will be the anniversary chapter in June and feature the Rainbow Room. Last year there was a video that seemingly featured the new map. Unlike Stranger Things, Leatherface was only a character. Back then they considered him a paragraph and not a chapter. He didn’t have a map or a survivor with him, so his departure from the game would only mean that you wouldn’t be able to purchase him anymore. It’s assumed that if you own him already, he will be playable even after he’s no longer purchasable.

A Texas Chainsaw Massacre game will be coming out in a few months. That could play into the reasoning why Leatherface will be leaving the Entity’s Realm. While the game looks fun, it’s hard to imagine that a franchise focused game is going to knock Dead by Daylight off its current horror throne. I wouldn’t be surprised if Leatherface was back after a year or so after their game releases.

So there was a few months without an update here. It was a pretty uneventful couple of months, just streaming and work for the most part. The last week of December was anything but uneventful, though. After Christmas both Kris and I came down with Covid. We are recovering, but even being vaccinated, it knocked us out. I am going on my last couple doses of Paxlovid and even after one dose, I was feeling much better.

Since catching Covid I haven’t been streaming, but once I am feeling up to it again, I will be playing through the God of War series and potentially a lot of others on my new PS5. I will admit my PS4 didn’t get much usage because the controller felt small and misshaped for my hand, but with the PS5 controller, it seems bigger. I am looking forward to playing that and others. I’m hoping once I am feeling better that I can dedicate more time to content creation whether that’s writing, images, streams, or videos.

I’m coming up on a year since my heart attack too. I definitely don’t want to be doing that again and after this last year, it seems I am in much better health. My next appointment could mean some reductions in medication too. I have to get blood and other testing done before my appointment in April. There’s a few months left to go.

When I wake up, I’m going to plan out some short form videos, if I can. If I’m feeling up to it then I may even record them. I added a project manager to WordPress so to keep myself organized and on track, but it’s just a mess of different projects for different areas. I guess that wasn’t as successful as I had hoped it would be.