2019

Is a Resident Evil 3 announcement coming at the Game Awards? Well if you are to believe these rumors it is. After their success of Resident Evil 2 and the fact that Resident Evil 3 is not currently available on any current generation system, it wasn’t hard to imagine that a Resident Evil 3 remake was going to be coming sooner or later. The original game used the same engine as Resident Evil 2 and released under 2 years after it. If they follow the same timeline then Resident Evil 3 would be released in late 2020 around September or October.

That possibly won’t be the case, however since Capcom also has another Resident Evil game coming out soon, a co-op game where you need to work together to survive, like Left 4 Dead. That was in beta earlier this year, it’s called Resident Evil Resistance.

Twitter user Nebellion posted these pictures today from the Playstation store.

Resident Evil Resistance cover art?

Resident Evil 3 remake cover art featuring Jill and Carlos?

Alternate cover art for Japan for the Resident Evil 3 remake?

Jill Valentine rendered into Resident Evil 3 remake

We will have to tune in to the Game Awards on December 12th to know whether or not this is going to turn out to be true or not.

We’ve known that developers have had PS5 and Xbox Scarlett development kits for a while now, but here we see the PS5 devkit in the wild. What is interesting about the dev kit is that it’s shape is in a V, obviously the V stands for 5, but is there more to it than that? Why not just make a box and put a V on it? If you look closely you can see something in the side vent holes. Could those be fans or wires? It would seem odd that the Xbox One X can be cooled in such a small box, but the PS5 development kit can’t. Could this be a hint that when the PS5 launches late next year it is going to be quite a bit larger than the PS4?

The Playstation 3 was quite a bit larger than the PS4 when it launched. With a new Blu-ray player in there as well as multiple USB and PS2 backward compatibility, the size of it matched its price tag. Is it possible that next generation’s Playstation 5 will be just as big if not bigger than its ancestor the PS3? Only time can tell for sure.

How much time? Well Sony skipped E3 in 2019 and did their own showing in May ahead of Stadia’s reveal a few weeks later in June before E3. They could very well do that again in 2020 if not earlier than May. They might even go the way Microsoft went in 2013 with a demo showing off the features of the now discontinued Kinect along with a new Call of Duty game, then a few weeks later at E3 showed off the games that were supposed to be coming out for the system. (RIP Scalebound)

No matter what they choose to do, we will be watching with anticipation as next gen should be good for gamers all across the board.

Edit: @Alcoholikaust on Twitter is the one who posted the image of the dev kit and Tom Warren, editor for Verge confirmed these are indeed PS5 dev kits.

I had to take some time off in November due to being in a bad place mentally. I am still planning on doing Gears 5 and Burnout Paradise Remaster before December though. In December I am going to stream

Shadow of the Tomb Raider
Halo Reach (PC)

I am limiting to just dedicating the month to these two games to leave open for how much time I spend on Reach, multiplayer, map making and campaign. I am also not sure what is happening for Christmas and New Year’s as we might have a decent amount of company during that time. I do have an Xbox One X now, as well as a Switch, so expect more of those games as well as playing more with my PS4.

In America and around the world, I hope today you find and give thanks for all you have and all you had throughout your life. Happy Thanksgiving!

How do you grade art? In high school essays and stuff has a way of being graded by spelling, grammar, sentence structure, but what if the structure was made in a way to convey a point, what if the poor spelling, run on sentences, etc were part of the art and imagery that the writer was trying to convey? How do you grade art?

Critics have a hard job. They have to review things and not care if they hurt the artist. The artist in turn has to understand that their art may just not be for that person. Look at the movie Venom, it was hated by critics, but loved by fans. Critics literally just tell people if you like the same things as me, you will either love it or hate it. It is a pretty odd profession if you think about it.

I find doing reviews extremely hard, which is probably why I haven’t put any up in a long time. I am planning on doing them, I just hate criticizing someone’s hard work. Yes Call of Duty is the same game released yearly, but it is a game that people love and that a team took years to make, so who am I to say whether it is a good game or not? What makes a game good? Is it fun had while playing? Story? Replayability? Least amount of bugs? All of the above? For me I want it to be all of the above and maybe more. When I start doing reviews again I will be posting videos and clips of me playing it, along with a scoring system and then a final score from that system.

Now to just figure out the scores and start writing reviews.

GTFO is a four player survival horror game where you are dropped off in an abandoned area deep under ground and then have to solve clues and make your way through rooms while avoiding being detected and killed by monsters. The gameplay trailer was debuted in 2017 at the Game Awards.

The alpha came out this week and thanks to Dawn_Zero on Twitch, I was able to get a key from him. We couldn’t quite figure out what the deal was with the terminals, after a few times, we figured we could use it to find a keycard that was needed to get to the next area, but never could figure out what to search for. It’s also a bit hard to figure out if the monster is dead considering it can attack you without a head and even without a whole upper half of the body. We were definitely attacked by a pair of legs and monsters pointing what would be their genitals at us. It was a pretty fun experience.

Since it was an alpha, there was bound to be some bugs and other issues. There were some memory leaks, a game crash, and the weirdest bug of the night was where I had a gun, I had ammo, but I couldn’t shoot. All in all not that bad for an alpha.

So far there is no solid release date, and there are rumors of unlockable cosmetics and being able to keep items found in levels if you can escape. Their website says that it will be out in 2019, so I look forward to seeing what the next few weeks and months bring for this game.

I have been diagnosed with depression for as long as I can remember. For as long as I can remember, I considered myself broken. Nowadays logging on to social media and you can find everyone talking about depression, suicidal tendencies, etc, but growing up before the internet that kind of thing was not common at all. I feel alone and isolated and lonely now, even seeing other people’s posts about the same things I am going through, but when you don’t have that, when you are alone in your room stuck in your head with no outlet, the world seems like a much darker, lonelier place than it actually is.

Even though the feelings of isolation and loneliness is still there today, seeing others share their stories does help to know I am not alone, even if the irrational side of my brain has me believing that I am. So why am I sharing this now? Because I am tired of hiding who I am. I am tired of being ashamed of the demons that plague my head. I want to be a more open and honest person and I think that this is going to be how I do it.

People have told me things like “you shouldn’t share that” and for a while I might have thought well maybe they know something I don’t, maybe I should keep this stuff to myself. Seeing other people be so comfortable with sharing their own demons has me thinking that the people who didn’t want me to share is because it made them uncomfortable. Why?

Is it because their own demons have them so uncomfortable that they wish not to have others be so open about their own? Do they want you to just conform and ignore it? Was that their secret to life, just ignore the demons and go along pretending like everything is fine, but really any moment alone in their head eats them alive?

Maybe they have no irrational demons like me, maybe they are just “normal” people who don’t have the same headspace issues I do. It is entirely possible that their words, though said to me in passing 15 years ago still haunted me today. Is that normal? What is normal? Is normal just conforming to what everyone else is doing and losing your uniqueness along the way?

I don’t want to be normal, I never was normal. Recently I’ve been embracing the weirdness more and more. Outwardly becoming the weird person I’ve always suppressed in an attempt to pose as normal. I am tired of hiding. I am weird, I am depressed, I have demons, and I am a mess of a person. It is who I am.

New logo, new theme, new categories (well missing ones since things seem to have broke at some point, probably when I moved to WordPress MU), and a new renewed agenda to start writing again.

I posted on Twitter that I was going to do reviews for games I stream calling it retro reviews and that is the plan. Before I did that though, I needed to get a new theme up with my new logo that Syx (tensyx.com) made for me. I also had to get rid of the premade theme that I had up for a little while now. My new logo is part of a brand for everything, starting with the site, continuing over to Twitch, etc. It is something that I have needed and been wanting for a while now and I am happy that it is all coming together finally.

Things are definitely going to be moving forward and I am going to be getting more and more into content creation in videos, streams, and writing, whereas the last few years I was only focused on streaming. I think I am in a spot mentally that I can start todo things a bit different. Lots of changes coming and it’s not a moment too soon.

This is the first time I am doing something like this and announcing games I will be streaming for the month. This doesn’t mean that these are the only games I will be playing, just the ones I am committing to for November and in no particular order.

Burnout Paradise Remaster
Elite Dangerous
Tales from the Borderlands
Gears5

I wrote this post over three years ago and I got some feedback that I should wait until I got a new prescription. Well I did, I waited over three years and finally got a new prescription. Once I came home I ordered four pairs of glasses, a regular pair, a blue blocking pair, sunglasses, and sport glasses that I can use in the garage as safety glasses.

I’ve been in the garage more lately getting things done around the house that I’ve put off for too long. I’m not an expert by any means, but I do know the ideas of how to do stuff and anything I don’t know there are people to ask and videos to watch. I put off a lot of stuff because I never like how it comes out when I do it, but I am learning to slowly let that part of me go and to just accept it and adjust and fix when it is necessary and not always just focus on the flaws.

This blog really hasn’t been updated in three years if not longer and I am really aiming to change that. Since moving into our house a lot of things have changed and I don’t think I’ve talked about them. I started streaming on Twitch, we unfortunately lost Bella a year ago today, we met an incredible group of friends, it’s been a roller coaster of ups and downs over the last few years.

There’s been so many times I opened a page to write and didn’t know what to say or how to say it and I think I need to force myself to just use this as an outlet more and say what I want. Writing used to be such a huge outlet for me, poems, stories, etc and it’s fallen away. I have thought about doing a Vlog too, but I can barely do Twitch without making a complete fool of myself so add in a vlog where I need to edit videos and write down key points for what I want to talk about probably isn’t in the cards right now, but I do have a laptop and Mac not doing anything so they could make good rendering machines if I want to actually do that. At this point though, I think I’d want a phone with a better front facing camera if I was going to go that route as the S8 is kind of lacking. The Pixel, Note10+, or S10 look like they have good cameras. I wonder how the iPad camera is too, I have yet to really use it. I do take photos of myself in front of a green screen and put myself in video games for Instagram, maybe instead of my phone, I will try my iPad next time I do it.

I wanted to do it today, but with Grambler shutting down and Buffer not uploading, I need to find the best solution for uploading via desktop. I will probably just try to figure it out over the next few days and hopefully be able to do it with some Agents of Mayhem screencaps over the weekend, assuming I can find a good solution.

Damn over 500 words, I suppose I had a lot to say. I hope my next update isn’t in a few years, I want to keep up with this, so I guess next week we will know if I did or not.