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My grandmother just passed away. I’m relieved in a way that we didn’t need to pull the plug, and she went on her own terms. She did everything on her own terms, even when she had no idea what she was doing and that was frequently, she did it her way. That was one of her favorite songs too, it’s what got her through so much. Frank Sinatra’s I Did It My Way was her favorite song and that’s the way she lived her life, not caring what others thought or how they saw her. Everyone saw this as her being a bitch. In a way she was a bitch, and she passed it on to my mother and me. She also passed it on to the woman whom she loved and thought of as a daughter. My grandmother was the biggest bitch one could ever know, and despite all her bitchy ways she still came through whenever you needed her. She helped me get through the tough times, spent nights in the hospital with me when things weren’t so good. We had the biggest sceaming matches ever and fought like crazy. She would even come to threaten me. Afterwards we both grew closer because we knew we were more alike than we ever realized. She had lung cancer and she didn’t even know it until a few days ago. She told my mom’s friend whom I went to get that she could die happy knowing that everyone was well and that we’d all be okay. She helped raise me when my father wasn’t around, and she was the most influencial person in my life. Through everything she went through and everything that was going on with the family, one thing could definitely be said about her, she did it her way.

We miss you.

[Edit] After using my recovery CD from my laptop it worked, after discovering my XP CD was scratched. Everything is up now, all four harddrives and the DVD burner. Now I can get everything reinstalled and get to working on the site once again.[/Edit]

So I am formatting my harddrive after it crashed. I am installing it on a 20 gig harddrive so not to lose any files and then moving all my site files to a seperate partition, that is if it decides to work at all. I might need to get a new XP CD if that’s the case I’ll go to my school and get XP Pro from them and use that. Either that or try and install Windows 95 and upgrade to XP, the only problem is that I am not sure if my motherboard supports 95. With all this computer stuff I’m trying to get done, and the fact that classes start on the 6th, I won’t have much time to get it done, so I am focusing on the computer more than the site. Once everything is settled, I will be putting more effort into the site.

In other news my grandmother is almost out of oxygen from her backup tank since we brought her to the doctor the other day. We may have to bring her to the hospital soon, she is in congestive heart failure and she has gout. What a week it’s been.

I got my wired network up again, and now I’m fooling around with the wireless one. After the wireless one is up and running I am going to get the printers and file sharing all set up.

My grandmother came home yesterday with oxygen, which she never had before. We think she is having a problem breathing due to the fact that she was on some alzheimer’s medication, which she was never on before. What’s strange is that at a previous time, we were told she didn’t exhibit any of the signs that a alzheimer’s patient or a pre-alzheimer’s patient exhibits. It wasn’t too long ago that we got this diagnosis.

by leprakhauns on 18 Aug 2005 08:40 pm
So I bought a laptop today, so expect more update after I get everything up and running. The laptop is a Compaq Presario. I know it isn’t the best laptop out there, but seeing as how I will be using mostly for programming, it is a good buy. What I hate about new computers is all the crap that comes with it. All the excess software that you will never use and just takes up space.

My grandmother is scheduled to come home on Saturday, so it is a mad dash to the finish to get everything done. Deadlines usually get me going, so waiting ’till the last minute isn’t a bad thing. Well I’m going to get back to clearing the laptop of the unneeded junk.

This is my first movie review:

Summary: Deuce Bigalow European Gigalo picks up a few years after the first one left off. This time Deuce (Rob Schneider) goes to Amsterdam to investigate the recent murder of gigalos. While in Europe he is coaxed back into being the bumbling gigalo by his pimp TJ. He is pimped out to woman with problems each more ridiculous than the last, including a woman with a baby fetish and a woman with a penis for a nose.

This movie can be described in one sentence: a bad sequal to a not so great movie. The movie throws ridiculous situations at you, that would never happen in real life and expect you to laugh at it. The most ridiculous one being Sneider’s character’s attachment to his dead wife’s artificial leg. It is unbelievable and too ridiculous and uninspired to laugh at. I give it half a shamrock out of 5 shamrocks.

So it is 7AM and I am up. not that unusual for me especially in the summertime, but what is strange is the fact that I went to bed and then woke up at 6. I need to be up a few times this week. Tomorrow I need to call my boss about work, which has been disbanded since the end of June. And then on Tuesday I have a meeting for a scholarship. I got the scholarship last year and it payed for everything, there’s no reason I shouldn’t get it again this year.

My father came to look at the house and he hasn’t gotten back to us yet as to whether or not he can get the mortgage. If he can’t get the mortgage than we will have to fix up the house as best as we can, as cheap as we can. Hopefully he buys it so we can be out as soon as possible, and my grandmother won’t have to be upstairs for long.

I guess that’s about it for now, I am working on some more ideas and have a few more things I want to add, but I don’t know how I want to do it just yet.

Okay first an update on personal life: My father hasn’t come to look at the house yet, but said that he will stop by tomorrow to look round. Structurally there is nothing wrong with it, just cosmetic stuff. Everyone knows in order to prevent paint from peeling you use a primer, same thing with wallpaper, when they built the house, they didn’t prime anythingm so we have paint peeling and wallpaper peeling. Not to mention the fact that one of the dogs always goes on the carpet, making them smell really bad.

My dog’s test came back that the tumor wasn’t cancerous so she has a few more years to go. Very Happy My grandmother has pnumonea, though, and she is on oxygen at the rehab Sad Now onto site news.

I know that Gristly will be very happy that I have put Halo 2 game stats in the Me section of the site. I am hoping I can get the source code for them so I don’t need the flash, or host them on my site, but for now they are there. I also included my and Gristly’s clan, the Prostitutes in the stats section. It seems like this site is coming along better than my previous ones. I had to buy a new scanner today, I got an HP all in one printer, copier, scanner. It was cheaper than any of the single scanners I saw online or in the store.

Tell me what you want to see here. I will have a new section up soon, but for now it is time for me to take the trash out, get the mail, and head for some more Halo.

Okay so I got the official LepsLair chatroom up and running. It is a java applet that connects to IRC. Thanks to PJIRC for that.

So we took my dog to get her nails clipped and the vet felt a lump in her stomache, it turned out to be a tumor. She had surgery and is coming home today, but they aren’t sure if the tumor is malignant or not. She could die in six months if it is cancerous. Sad

We all dream of greatness, of doing something that will let our legend live on even after we are gone. Maybe that’s why I keep making websites, hoping that one day I will make something great. We always hear stories of those who overcome the odds and do something that makes them unique. I overcame the odds with highschool, but it doesn’t make me unique, many people have. If any of you don’t know what I’m talking about, then take a few hours and watch the movie Rudy. Then look at your life and consider why you are where you are. Are we where we are supposed to be? Or are we here because we made some decisions and took chances and opportunities? Or are we here because of destiny? If you say that we are here simply due to destiny then I pose this question to you? What about the homeless people? What about people who struggle everyday of their lives, never to get ahead? Do you really think that destiny put them there? What makes you so special that you aren’t living in a cardboard box in december in the middle of New York? Listen to advice, take chances, take every opportunity that presents itself, and just remember that we can all be remembered for something, don’t ever give up on that dream.

So I’ve been up all night these past few nights working on a new page that should have been up a few days ago. The writing section is basically the poems and the blogs and when I get enough for an archive, the archive of the blogs, and any other writing I plan to put up.

As for the home life, my grandmother is still in rehab, and my father should be coming over today to see if he wants to buy the house. We found a place that would allow us to customize the home to the T and now we’re on a waiting list. If we move to this place, it is about 3 miles from the beach and has a pool (I know kind of pointless when your so close to the beach, but its a good place to meet your neighbors).

It looks like two of my favorite singers are splitting up. Good luck to Comradef and Lucy Doll in their future solo endeavers.

I haven’t really been doing the graphics for the site as much as some flash things for an introduction. It’s coming along, just needs some tweaking. I’m still doing the layout, but still getting the house in order is taking up a lot of time. In related news my mother and I are going back down to Delaware on Monday to look at houses. She actually found one online that is perfect, just what we need, and we can afford it. It’s actually really funny because I took a picture of it the last time we were down there, without knowing anything about it.

Short post today so I leave you with this: Everything happens for a reason, we may not know the reasons why, we may never understand them, but they happen for a reason.

[Edit] My good friend Mike just emailed me about his CD coming out. Check it out here.[/Edit]

Newton stated that an object in motion will remain in motion until an outside force acts on it. With my grandmother breaking her hip, we figured it would be best if we moved her up to my mother’s room, my mother to my room, and me to the basement. I have been an object in motion, running around for the past few days getting everything together. I had to empty the basement to put a rug in (first time and it worked) so the house is full of furniture. When everything is in right rooms I will have a room tour of my new basement room.

In other other news I have an appointment on August 16 for a scholarship. I got it last year it is given out from the state of NJ and it pays for books and gas and some school. I am still somewhat short for next semester and I hope they pay the same amount as last year so I don’t need to take out a loan. When it gets closer to September I will post my schedule. I’d do it now but I don’t feel like finding it. I know I’m taking Object Oriented Programming using C++, an Introduction to Unix course, and a Visual Basic course. I took Visual Basic in high school and I remember it somewhat. I stole my book from highschool and I have Visual Basic on my computer. My high school teacher was always pushing me to my limits shopwing me the right way to program and drilled it into my head that just because you can write code and make something work, if it doesn’t work the right way, the best way, then you cannot call yourself a programmer. If it wasn’t for Mr. Munson, then I don’t know if I’d even know half of what I know about programming. Then my astronomy teacher, Mr. Bickart showed me how to utlize Photoshop and Flash MX and vector images. So to them both, I say thank you.

I am still working on the site I have not given up. I have a few images I’m working on and a few layout ideas that I am trying.

So my internet was acting up the last few days. I finally got it working and you can see little updates on the menu and the linespacing of the blog. I thought if I could hook the modem up to the main line and use a wireless router it would be better, but after I went out and bought the router, the modem was up again. So today I need to go back and return the router and wireless cards. After I return it I will have money, I’d like to get a sound card, one with a remote the stereo receiver jacks, but it isn’t feasable right now. I’ll need to take the money I get back and put it toward bills. It isn’t that bad, though, because I get paid on Thursday. Maybe I’ll get another movie. I bought Back to the Future trilogy and Meet the Fockers yesterday, which is okay because I haven’t treated myself to anything in a while. I still haven’t given my dad a Father’s Day gift, maybe I’ll pick something up for him.

My grandmother is doing about as good as one can be doing, I suppose. She fell the other day so we brought her to the hospital, but nothing is broken. They gave her pain medicine and shes completely out of it. She thinks we took her dancing and we all got drunk. She also thinks that Oprah is after her money.