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Earlier this month, Mitchell Stuekerjuergen with the gamer alias “Kuja105” committed suicide. My thoughts and condolences go out to his friends, family, and gaming buddies. Unfortunitely that isn’t the saddest part of this story.

Jack Thompson who has been speaking publicly lately against video games, who have bought stock in Grand Theft Auto’s parent company to attend stockholder’s meetings, and whose just plain ignorant, released a statement regaurding Mitchell’s death. In this statement he said that Mitchell chose to fill up the void in his heart meant for the lord, with “combat video games”. He stated that playing video games is a “masterbatory senseless self stimulation” and that all the gamers out need to get off their computers and consoles, and if we did then Kuja105’s death could have been avoided.

What Mr. Thompson failed to recognize is the fact that when Kuja105 stated on a message board that he was considering suicide, the moderator’s of those forums spent countless hours getting his contact information and staying on the phone with him, trying to talk him out of it. Mr. Thompson also fails to realize that depression is a disease, and just because you play video games does not

Okay so before I start this thing I just want to say that I’ve been working on something for the site, but I realize that what I want to do is far too complex, although I could do it, just not at this moment in time due to school starting in a few weeks.

In 2005 I…

went to Ohio
went to Delaware
moved to Dealaware
saw my aunt whom I haven’t seen in 6 years
got numerous pay raises
quit my job at Shoprite
learned Assembly Language
started this blog
fell in love
lost my grandmother Sad
learned how to pump my own gas
got addicted to G4 TV
got VOIP
got a job using my technical skills
was president of my college’s computer science club
got a new scanner
drove through many states
had my car for a year without anything seriously wrong with it
had no tickets
got offered my job back at 3 dollars more an hour
got a few more sections added to my site
said goodbye to an ex once and for all
gone to the bar legally
bought alcohol legally
slept in a car
went to frat parties
gotten another poem published
met some really cool people
discovered great new bands
taken some sweet pictures
pwned n00bs on XBox Live

Somehow I thought this list would be bigger. Oh well 2005 was overall an okay year, hopefully 2006 will be better.

So I survived a Christmas with the family. It’s weird, I never really considered Debbie (my mom’s friend I went to get) as family, even though she is my God-Mother. I guess it is easier now that she is actually around. Christmas was good though, I got a Buddah which I think is awesome. That is definitely a really great present, because the whole religion is based on philosophy on how how you live, and not so much how you worship.

I went to see Kelly yesterday, she had no idea I was coming. Her reaction when she saw me there was hilarious. I took her out to dinner and fell asleep in her car with her LOL. I don’t think I would have made it that three hour drive back to DE if I didn’t have that nap.

As for the website: I am going to take care of things offline for a bit before I add anything else, or work on anything in the daytime, at night I’ll be working on some things.

So when my mother asked me what I wanted for Christmas I told her I didn’t know. I originaly wanted another monitor, but when I went into the only store down here, the guy was uneducated and I didn’t feel safe buying a Dell monitor from him. If I wanted a Dell monitor I could probably get it cheaper from Dell. So I asked her for the Nintendo GameCube. I am probably going to trade it in for a Revolution when it comes out, rumor is it will only be around 99 dollars. Because we won’t be here for Christmas, my mother gave it to me today. It came with three controllers, Sonic Adventure, Resident Evil, and Mario Party 7. As soon as I saw Resident Evil, I knew I had to have it. I’ve been yearning to get it for years actually, if for no reason except to play Resident Evil.

There’s also a few other games I’d like to check out for it too. The problem with owning all three systems, is the fact that you must decide which games to buy for which system. The main reason I got my XBox was so I could go on XBox live, which has really been worth the money. I have been able to promote my site, while pwning noobs at the same time. LOL.

I registered for classes a few days ago, I am taking an accounting class, Windows Operating Systems class, another operating systems class, and a Visual Basic. That’s 16 credits, plus another 3 that I have tested out of will be given to me at the end of the semester. So that will be 19 credits more by May. I also am taking the exemption test for the Windows class, which is good because it overlaps my Visual Basic class. If I can test out of the Windows class, I may take a graphics arts class, or just some class that I find interesting. That would bring me up to 23 credits. I have 25 credits now. That would give me a total of 48 credits. Then maybe I could transfer to Wilmington College or University of Delaware or maybe I could go to California like I always wanted. Anyway, let’s hope this semester doesn’t kill me. Did I forget to mention that on top of all this school work I also need to find a job? Oh yes I can see what little social life I may have dwindling faster and faster.

by leprakhauns on 14 Dec 2005 04:23 am
Lately I have been in contact with a few pornstars, I am even on call in case a webmaster needs help with a site. When I first started talking to them, I thought they’d be more uptight and I’m famous don’t look at me. It is weird, however, because a few of them don’t mind signing autographs and doing the publicity most mainstream stars do. What really surprised me was that one of the pornstars was a web geek. She has an XBox 360, and loved Nintendo. Now I know the porn business isn’t all having sex, I know there’s real work involved, especially for the guys, but it really just shocked me that they’d be willing to talk and all that. Some of you may be saying yeah, right, how could you start talking to pornstars, or how do you know its really them, but I must say that my proof it is them is undeniable.

I won’t give out information on who they are, how to get in contact, or what they have starred in, or what site I was called in to do work on. I will tell you this however, one of them in particular seemed to enjoy my site, and to me that’s worth more than 100 people who hate it, not because she’s famous, but because she took the time to bookmark it.

My 25″ monitor was out of focus, so I opened it to adjust the focus, but I somehow messed it up and it is now fuzzy and has no red color. So I switched my monitors, that is now just for my playlist. My monitor now is a little out of focus I think, but I don’t feel like messing with it. I could always hook up my television to my computer, all I would need is an S-video out cable. As much as I hate to say it though, it looks like I’ll be investing in a monitor soon.

There was an accident on Route 1 today, a car swerved in front of another car and got hit. I stopped to help, along with a bunch of other people, we still had towels and stuff in my momther’s car (since mine isn’t registered) so that helped them out a lot.

It’s hard this time of year, I don’t even feel like celebrating the holidays, first year without my grandmother, and I just feel like giving up. Usually we’d have a tree up by now, I mean it seems that she was the one who drove us to decorate. It was her favorite holiday. A few years back she was in the hospital around Christmas and she got out of the hospital on December 23rd. Up until then there weren’t any Christmas decorations up, but I decorated the whole house that day.

I’ve been acting weird with this whole holiday stuff, saying stuff I shouldn’t say to people, and not saying stuff to other people. To everyone who I’ve hurt in the last few days I’m sorry, I know I can’t make up for what I did, but I hope someday we can get passed it.

Do you ever say to yourself that you love your car? You take it to the car wash, buy it rims, change its oil every 3000 miles, but what happens when it breaks down? You suddenly go from loving it to hating it. You yell at it and possibly smack it. You’ve gone from loving this machine to hating it. If it was love, then you could only be mad at it and not hate it. How can you love something that doesn’t have the potential to love you back? It is just a machine that you choose what it is.

WHat I mean is that it can be a car, a vehicle that takes you from point A to point B, but what if on your way to point B someone cuts you off? Well then you could possibly get angry, and drive around and cut him off, you then turn your car into a weapon. What if you get evicted from your house? You have no where to go, so you stay in your car. Your vehicle is now your home. So you see you decide what you use things for, you decide how you use it.

Spiderman is driven by one simple phrase: with great power comes great responsibility. It is each his or her own responsibility for how they act, and how they use their possessions. If you can say I love you to your car, but not to your children, then something is wrong there, and it is your responsibility to rectify the situation. Remember that you can’t love things that don’t have the potential to love you back.

So I suppose my insomnia is back, seeing as how it is 4:38 AM and I am still awake. I just did another coat of black paint on my bed and I set up the main configuration of my office, but I haven’t brought in my desktop from my car yet. I want to wait until all my furniture is painted, but my mother is bugging me to set hers up so I would need to find my desktop and install it and set up the printers and all that jazz, something I don’t feel like doing. At least after my bed is finished I only need to paint my dresser and the tv stand. I am still contemplating my need for a television in my office, I think I do need one seeing as how I’ll be spending most my days in here working on school work and other stuff, plus it will be the room with the router so I would need it for my Xbox Live.

Speaking of XBox, I have been hearing a lot of complaints of the 360 keeps overheating. I guess it is good I didn’t buy it, but I will try and save my mooney for the PS3. Sony has never dissappointed me in the console world, and I wish to get Nintendo Revolution too, when that too comes out. As for the 360, I’ll wait until the overheating is resolved.

So I am in Delaware now, all hooked up to the internet and ready to go. The last few days have been hectic, getting the closing all sorted out and stuff. There were a few issues that arose, no gutters on the house, low water pressure, an uncovered drain in the back of the property, and a few others. Everything worked out fine though and now we are in the house. I’ve been painting the last few days, not much got done though because we didn’t buy much paint and the walls are textured and sucked it up. And being yesterday was Thanksgiving Lowes was closed.

I know I need to add more to the site, and update the about me, but there is so much to do in my life outside the site, that I don’t know when I will get it done. Plus at this point I am more in a meet new people kind of mode because I don’t know anybody in Delaware. If you live in Delaware speak up and leave a comment.

It is so much different down here, everyone is nicer and don’t look at you like you’re going to rob them. It reminds me of Ohio, but more cultured I guess the word would be. Everything closes around here pretty early in the winter because it is so dead down here. I am going to be hitting some cyber cafes in the coming days because I think it might be a good place to meet people with similar interests. I went into one the other night, but the guy was just like it’s winter nobody is around, so I need to find what people do here in the winter. It also doesn’t help that I won’t be going to school until January.

All in all I miss Jersey to a degree, but there is something about living this close to the beach that seems so serene. I just have so much to do that I can’t enjoy it fully: painting the living room, kitchen, hallway, my room, my office, my bathroom, my mom’s room, and my mom’s bathroom, buying/building an L-shaped desk, unpacking, Christmas, decorating my office in a professional manner.

So this blog marks the 50th blog I’ve done. When I started this, I didn’t think I’d be so into blogging, and now it seems like even if I have nothing to blog about I am still writing. I even got back into writing poetry due to the blog.

The site is over a year old and the blog is only since about June or so, but it seems like the site has come a long way. It isn’t perfect, there is still much more to add, like a more sections and more tutorials, specifically website help and some C++ tutorials. But in a year it has progressed nicely.

So today I am going back to Delaware. the inspector is coming to look at the house make sure everything is up to code and such. Well I’d best be going now I want to shave my head before we go.

The forum has been messed up for the last day or so due to me messing around with it. Don’t worry I will have it back running normally soon. There was some errors in the forum that I didn’t know about until I went from page to page to check it out. I am doing the best I can so please bear with me.

I just woke up, I don’t know if I’m sick or I’m depressed because I have been sleeping a lot lately. Maybe I am sick because my throat is hurting a bit.

Delaware was interesting, but due to circumstances beyond our control, we may need to go back down there on Thursday. I may not go and just let my mom go if I am sick though. Okay well that’s all for this post I need to fix these problems and pack.

So I got a copy of Age of Empires 3 and I am very impressed. The voice acting isn’t as bad as most other video games, actually it is quite good and the graphics are amazing. The Native American tribes play a big part, allowing you to control their warriors and trade with them. You are the controlling general and the other players on your team (AI) ask if they can give up, and you can choose to allow them to resign or keep fighting. The only dissappointment I have in it is the lack of water battles. In AOE2 there’s more of an emphasis on water battles and allow you to control water inept societies like the Vikings. All in all though I love this new distraction.

I did get some packing done. I went to sleep at 2 and woke up a few hours later and I am fully refreshed. I was able to get some packing done, which I am almost done I suppose, most of my stuff is in those Sterilite draws, I am just going to tape the fronts closed and take the stuff like that.

My car was put in the shop yesterday, I don’t know what’s wrong with it yet. I hope it is nothing serious, seeing as how this is my third car.